I want to say thank you very much for the responses and clarify what my issues are without going into too much detail. I think it would be disrespectful to give too many details since my depression is caused by the state of my marriage. My husband is not here to answer for himself. He is a good person and he doesn't abuse me or run around on me.
I love my husband dearly and I do believe he loves me as much as he knows how to love someone. He is a very closed off man and our communication has hit an all time low. I really don't want to blab the details, I just think we need to get to a point where we can communicate. I also have to stop being so passive and stand up for myself, before the issue gets so big we can't deal with it. I am also learning that I deserve to have my needs met just as much as he does even if it is not easy for him.
I believe that I need to work on things just as much as he does but I don't know where to start so I am seeing a counselor. I did ask him to come with me next week. I hope he comes , I am not sure I want to stay with this counselor but it did help to talk to her. I felt like I was holding so much stuff in that just having someone else not involved listen helped me work some things out.