Monday, November 25, 2013

Wish I would have known

Are there things you wish you could go back and tell yourself as a child. Over the last year and a half I have learned a few things that I wish I could go back and tell myself. As a child I was very shy and everything embarrassed me so I spent a lot of time avoiding embarrassment. Needless to say that let to trying a lot of things once or twice then feeling like it was not worth the embarrassment to keep trying and failing.

I spent a lot of time blaming my parents who didn't let me do a whole lot of anything. They were very strict but loving parents. Let me clarify what I mean by strict, they tried to shield me as much as possible from what they considered the bad stuff. Basically I was very limited in the types for movies and music I was exposed to and I was not allowed to do a lot of things other kids were. I was not abused although as a teen who couldn't go see the concerts she wanted to I felt abused.

Over the last year and a half I have found that I love dancing and I take Latin dance classes and pole dance and aerial fitness classes. I love them but I was really bad when I started. I kept thinking that had I done gymnastics when I was a child I would have loved it and my parents didn't encourage it. The more I think about it the more I realize even if they did encourage it I would have quit because it was hard. So had my parents decided to let me take dance lessons and I couldn't get it in a few lessons I would have quit.

I realize now that it had nothing to do with my parents while my options were limited as to what I could do they would have helped me find something had I just stuck with it. I even remember one year I joined the track team and they made me fill my commitment. I am was not a runner then and I am not a runner now but I stuck it out and regardless of winning anything it helped me slim down and develop new social contacts.

So what do I wish I could have told myself as a child and teen? I wish I could have told myself when I was really young and took a few tumbling classes that even though it is hard right now it will get easier. That just because I don't learn as fast as the other girls that does not mean I won't learn it. As a teen I wish I would have learned to dance even if the only classes I was able to attend were ballroom style dancing but again I would have quit because it was hard. I wish I could have told my teenage self that anything I wanted to do could be done with hard work and dedication.

It is a lesson I have learned over and over since I signed up for a pole dance fitness class and expanded my types of fitness. I try it all now and when I don't get it the first time or even the first 50 times I just keep saying to myself that if I keep practicing I will get it. It has taken me a long time but I am trying to eliminate I can't from my vocabulary. Well for the most part there are probably thing I literally can't do but when it comes to learning a new dance step or a complicated upside down move on the pole or in the fabrics I have changed my vocabulary. I am also trying to help other ladies do the same when I catch my self saying " I can't" I almost always remember to at YET to the end of that. It is such a habit I don't seem to be able to change the vocabulary completely yet but it will come.

I have been down on myself for most of my 3 and a half decades of life so it is going to take some time to develop a better more positive vocabulary. I always felt like I was doomed for failure in everything I did. I am still not an ace at the dancing part of anything but I am learning and I keep improving and that is good enough for me. I am not good at a lot of things but each time I pick something I really like and really want to get better at then work hard to learn it guess what I get better at it.


Sunday, May 5, 2013

Detoxifying your life

Good morning everyone! I am going to be changing the direction of this blog....I know I have done this multiple times but this time I mean it. I am not promising anything on a regular basis because every time I do life just gets in the way and blogging moves just gets moved lower and lower on the priority list.

I am not sure I will actually go back and delete anything but I am going to focus heavily healthy living including but not limited to, product reviews, healthy eating tips, fitness tips and my personal journey to eliminate toxins in my diet and personal care.

I have been pretty passionate about this in the past but the products have just been so expensive so I gave up. You can't spend a third of your income on food and personal care items. Now I have been eating more organic produce and other products for while now but sometimes I just can't. Sometimes we buy from the health store just to support them or to find an item that is not sold anywhere else. Now that the grocery store is selling a lot more organic I purchase these items there as often as I can to let those chain stores know that organic is important to me. The great thing is they now offer a lot of sales at stores like Krogers on the organic items. Just this past week I got Stonyfield Farms Greek yogurt at the 10 for $10 price. I saved about $7 dollars by stocking up.

The personal care items we have in our homes such as toothpaste, soaps, shampoos, lotions, deodorant and makeup are all full of toxic chemicals. Now I am not going to say that any one of these chemicals will give you cancer or put you six feet under twenty years early. I know that is not the case yet there is a problem when you are using so many of these chemicals on your body as well as ingesting then in your food each day.

My first steps aside from eating higher quality foods and as many organic items as I can find is to replace my personal care items. A few days ago I purchased a natural deodorant and a natural toothpaste. I intend to research them further and bring you a review of each of them soon and let you know what is in them and if they work. So far the deodorant and the toothpaste work fine. Since I am the queen of trying to get a good deal I decided to go to Amazon and find some good subscribe and save deals for shampoo and conditioner,  facial cleanser, and a few other items. I ordered 5 products to try because it would save me an additional 15% off my order. When they arrive I will test them and let you know how well they work and what is in them.

Just a note for those of you trying to live a more healthy life just because something says organic does not make it healthy. You still have to watch what is in it and how many calories you are eating. If you eat a cinnamon roll  made with all organic ingredients it does not make it healthy. It may be a better choice than a non organic sweet treat but it is still bad for you.

Also don't trust labels something can have organic in the title and not actually be organic. I could make highly processed food full of all kinds of poor quality ingredients and call my company "Healthy Organic Food" as long as I didn't claim elsewhere on the packaging that I had organic products. Now if I were that deceitful people would quickly quit buying my products but there really are companies the capitalize on our ignorance so just be careful.

Last and most important if you decide to make the switch to less toxic items in your household as I am do your research and start small. Do your research and find out what is most important to your health and start there. I will start providing tips and options soon but if you take one personal care item each week or two a month and replace them with items that better for your health and skin you will be helping your body with each change.  

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Finding my WHY


Finding my WHY?
I have been working in direct sales and watching the biggest looser and I found a common thread in them. I know it is hard to connect the dots but this is really something everyone needs to think about. Why is it that you want something? Do you have a clear why in your work and you fitness goals? If you don't have a clear concept of why you are doing something it makes it that much harder to get it done.

I have been searching for my in business and now in fitness and I have come to the conclusion that I have been frustrated because I have been confusing some concepts. I thought my "why" and my end goal were the same thing. For example I thought the amount of money I wanted to make was going to motivate me to sell more products. I thought fitting into the tiny dress I have been dying to wear again was my fitness why. None of this was truly the case once I started to examine things and listen to my emotions.

My business why's have all changed and they actually only have a little to do with money. My fitness has long been a passion for me and I am working hard to get there because I love myself when I am fit! That is an amazing reason to do this.

I am completing an exercise in a book right now by defining my why here on my blog so I can refer back to it. So here goes.....
I want to sell enough products with my side business to pay for the education and equipment I will need to become a personal trainer and group fitness instructor. That is pretty much the main reason for the side business and I am going to keep working at it but I am not going to alienate friends and family to make it happen or spend half my week busting my but for one party booking and being frustrated.

With that said I used to spend a good 30-50 hours a week participating in exhausting activities and shelling out more than half of what I earned to keep promoting my business and all it did for me was make me feel exhausted and frustrated. Not going to happen any more because for once I know what I ultimately want to do and I am going to focus on that.

Here is where I struggle I have so many why's for wanting to be fit and half of them are very selfish! Well that is what I used to think. I love to help others and I like to make others happy especially my hubby and I have been living a lot of my life for others. Well I am done with that but first I want to say the pressure to please others was something I put on myself. I just assumed that my hubby was thinking this or that. I thought he would think I was stupid for wanting to be in the fitness industry....but once I asked him I was completely wrong. How many years have I wasted like this. I didn't believe I could dance but after sticking to it for months and month I am getting better.

Fitness why's may sometimes feel silly and selfish but here we go

I want to look good in that dress, in a bikini (even if I never wear one) and yes I want to look good naked even if the only people who ever see me that way are my hubby and whatever doctor I may have to see.

I want to look in the mirror and feel like every day I have accomplished something by keeping my body in great shape.

I want to get strong so I can do every Pole Dance move known and then some

I want to continue to get fit so I can teach others how to get fit and help them on a path to a new life

I want to stay fit so I have confidence.. For this one I used to think being thin was the reason I felt confident  and yes that helps a lot but the real source of this confidence is that I put in the work and achieved a goal.

I want to feel good about myself all the time so I want to keep pushing to the next level and the next and never give up.

I want to feel good physically not just look good but feel good. I want to have the energy to make it through each day. I want to be healthy yes but that is too broad I mean it when I say I want to feel good.

Here is one that I am embarrassed to say but it is true and I think about it from time to time. I want my hubby to notice other people looking at him like he is a lucky man when we go out together. I want to be the girl that draws a little extra attention.

So those are a few of my fitness why's

Now I have to set some goals the first of which I have already started. Getting fit is a lofty goal so I have to break it down into smaller pieces. So here goes.....

Goal 1
I want to see my abs by June. I know I have them I can feel the muscle but I still have enough fat around the midsection that I can not see them. So the fat must go!

How am I going to do that? 
I am going to start with going back to calorie counting and see what I am eating and what I need to cut. I don't like to do this because I tend to get obsessive and spend a lot of time on it or refuse to go out with my hubby and relax but it needs to be done for at least a few weeks just to calculate the amount of calories I am eating and get on top of any new foods that I don't really know the calorie amount.

I am going to log my exercise and work to get an average of at least 2 hours a day in activity. Don't worry yourselves I am not talking about strenuous exercise for 2 hours every day. I am just talking about a good strenuous work out about 5-6 days a week for 45-90 minutes and some more leisure or fun but consistent activities such as walking the dog or going out dancing.

Next I am going to be more active in every day activities like when I am reading I can stand up, when I play a game on the tablet to pass a little time before I need to be somewhere I can pace. I can do my least favorite thing in the world and clean my house more often. I can practice dance moves while cleaning and while getting ready. I can do those figure 8's (hips move in the shape of an 8) while I am blow drying my hair.  I think you get the picture.

My worst enemy is the television these days I love my TV so one of my first financial goals is to save up for that treadmill I really want so I can watch television while working out even if it is just a light walk. I can spend several hours each day watching television because I have so many things I enjoy watching and it just sucks my time away. I watch it all on Hulu so it is not like I have to watch at a particular time but I always watch in the am while I wake up. When I get the treadmill I will get up and set the treadmill up and do my usual feed all the animals and myself and get on the treadmill for a light morning walk while I watch last nights episode of Nashville. If I feel up to I could make it a jog or a run as I wake up. My bet is this will make my wake up time shorter most days too. I just need to get myself on a budget and work towards buying this treadmill.

Here is the really important one I will chart my progress and evaluate my diet and exercise program every two weeks. If I am not getting the results I need to get where I want to be I will tweak it a little but I will be able to wear that dress and look great in it by June! I can't measure in pounds right now. While some more pounds may come off I am not going to frustrate myself I am down to 127 but I know to get to the size I want I may not loos too many more pounds overall because I will be gaining muscle as I loose the fat. I would be happy when it is all said and done to see 120 on the scale but I will be happy with any weight that has me looking lean and strong. I want people to look at me and know that I work out I don't just want to be skinny.




Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Healthy for Life My Story

It really has been a long time since I have updated any of my many blogs. I have been working hard to change my life and made many personal discoveries. I have had to face many obstacles and have come out with a new vision.

I started my weight loss journey again several years ago. I was down to a good healthy weight and had kept it off for quite some time give or take a few pounds. Then as a 31 year old I had an accident and broke my hip and I was hoping to get right back up and spend a lot of time walking the dog and on the treadmill and in roller skating and other activities I really enjoyed. Well that didn't happen walking on the pavement still hurts and skating is kind of scary because I can't find a great place to go with a clean enough area to skate in. The treadmill I can do now but at first it hurt like hell and it really upset me so I gave up.

I drown my fear and anxiety in food, and activities that kept my mind off of the obvious issues and my booty on the couch. I was really depressed and lost all confidence. One day I had had it and started back despite the physical limitations deciding a slow steady walk on the treadmill was better than sitting on the couch and I worked my way up to more intensity and got a gym membership and moved on to weights and cardio fitness. I dropped about 20 pounds. I am never sure what I weighed at my heaviest because I refused to weigh until about a month or so after that life changing day.

Then I got stuck and discouraged and I tried many things with my diet that I now believe were just silly. Not that shakes and supplements are all bad but I really don't think anyone needs them to be healthy. Then I decided that maybe the workout's I was doing were not helping that much anymore. I was still in the overweight category and I decided to look for something fun to do. Something that would leave me disappointed when I couldn't make it. I found pole dance fitness and I was finally motivated to go to class as it has both cardio and strength training in one and I have never once felt like the class was 70-90 minutes long. Okay maybe the first month I when I was worn out at about 45 minutes it seemed kind of long but once I built up the strength I was so motivated to just move to the next level. I lost another 25 pounds in less than 6 months!

I kept thinking to myself I want to do this for a living, but instead I signed up with another direct sales company to try to cut the expenses of going to every possible class I could at the dance studio. I still didn't believe that I could do something like teach health and fitness for a living. I have performed with the studio in front of live audiences and still didn't believe in myself. I started to gain a little of the weight back over the holidays and started feeling a little depressed again and even participating in some of the old eating for comfort behaviors I thought I had kicked. About 5 pounds later I was starting to feel it in my clothes and decided there was no way I was going back there again and I kicked it back in to high gear the last two weeks of February up to today. I am pleased to say the weight is gone already and I am feeling better again because I am eating well and exercising.

For the first time in my life I didn't let that failure overcome me and it pushed me to take a plunge into a new carreer. Last Monday I signed up to become an ACE personal trainer and I have plans to get at least at least one more of the ACE certifications and to learn to teach Pole and other forms of dance fitness.

I like the direct sales company I work for now but it is not my ultimate goal and I had to overcome some issues the last few weeks. I work with a food company and the main focus is really on the unhealthy items so I was feeling conflicted. I decided to put that aside and focus more on the healthy items and even healthier preparation of items that are though of as traditionally unhealthy.  I am feeling renewed in my business and in my life!

I thought I would share this story and also have a record for myself to see how far I have come. I am not sure about my exact weight I don't monitor it all the time right now because I have been at healthy weight for some time now and I tend to gain muscle and get frustrated by the scale sometimes. I measure more by the way my clothes fit and the size 4 jeans that were getting tight a little less than a month ago are starting to get a little loose and that is a great feeling!

I am going to prove that anyone who puts there mind to something can do it. One of my goals even with the metal in my leg is to get a flat split in at least one direction. With my injury I am proceeding slow and with caution but I am almost all the way down in a front split with my left leg in front and more than half with the right in front. I am sure I will be able to perfect the front split if I keep at it and don't push too hard. Then we will see about the straddle. One goal on working the injured leg at a time.

Then the other goal is to prove that anyone can get those nice looking abs if they just work hard enough. I know I can but I also know it will take a ton of work on my part and I need to kick up the cardio because when I work my abs I can feel the muscle under them. I want to loose the fat so I can also see that muscle.

If you made it this far I hope my story has inspired you from now on this blog will be about my healthy lifestyle and helping others adopt a healthy life. Feel free to ask me questions I am here to help!

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Halloween Fun

Halloween Fun
Well I have had three occasions to wear costumes over the last week and it has been great to fit into a few super sexy ones and not feel like a cow. I have some sort of obsession with dressing up and I pulled out my box of costumes from about 8 years ago and found that some of them were actually too big. Almost all of them fit but some I was not really comfortable wearing so I bought two new ones and they were a hit. Hopefully some of the pictures that were taken will get back to me one of these days.

Maybe this obsession stems from the lack of freedom when I was young or maybe it is just a great excuse to wear something sexy in public at my age. Who knows but I had a blast the last week dancing the night away in a costume and hanging with some lovely ladies and their significant others.


Life Update
The last few months in my life have had me going a little crazy. Things are really good here I am no longer loosing weight but I am still loosing fat. I have my bad weeks and gain some fat but then I usually put my eating in check and loose it again. I have been doing a lot of working out and I am pushing the power moves in pole dance fitness class. I have had the chance to try on some more clothes and found that my shoulders are apparently too big for my size and a lot of tops now fit me in the tummy area but not the arms. I suppose this is a good problem to have so I am not going to complain. I will just buy more sleeveless things and use some wraps to go over them so I don't freeze.

I also started selling Tastefully Simple and found a few little side jobs. I am doing rather well with Tastefully simple and really excited about it. I have some trouble making time for it with all the classes I take but I have only been selling for two months and I will end up with about 2000 dollars  in sales once I close the last party today. I even earned my kit money back and got a bunch for free supplies for my sales. I am actually making money and don't have to push it on people because everyone likes the food.

Well I am off to meet with the hostess that will be closing the party today so have a great day.



Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Get a Pole Dancers Body at Home

If you have been keeping up with my posts these days you know that I am progressing along with my weigh loss goals by going to pole dancing class as well as getting additional training at home from SutdioVeena.com. In only 4 months I lost 5 sizes and 20 pounds and am still loosing. My body is changing shape dramatically and I owe it all to this amazing sport.

Pole dancers come in all shapes and sizes but if you are training hard and eating healthy you will start to see the  long lean muscles you have dreamed of. A pole dancer's body is not easy to develop but it is possible. I am seeing results very quickly but I am also on the pole a minimum of 4 days a week and I spend just as much time in other forms of training such as other types of dance classes, stretching and flexibility training, several types of cardio exercises as well as strength training.

After training hard these amazing muscles are popping out  in my arms and my shoulders as well as my legs and butt. The definition is amazing yet not too bulky...who knew you could have muscle tone in your forearms.  Most of the fat I have left is in my tummy but I when I work out I can feel the muscle that I will soon be able to see. The best part is that pole dancing is so fun you won't even feel like you are working out. Then the drive to get better makes all the non-pole training so worth it when you get to the pole and you can do something new on the first try.

So if you are looking to try pole dancing visit this article on my pole blog for more information about getting the pole dancers body at home.




Have You Got Your Pole On today

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Do you ever just feel fat?

Yesterday I felt fat all day the only thing I can think of is maybe I was bloated or something but I looked in the mirror and didn't look fat so I tried to shake that feeling. I hope I am not developing some sort of disorder I could stand to loose a little more fat in my tummy but it is that much.

So I kept telling myself I know I am not fat this is just my mind playing tricks on me and I waited until this morning to get on the scale. It has been a good week and a half to two weeks since I did this and to my surprise I was down two more pounds. I weight 125 now so there is no way I am fat.

I don't look fat in the mirror and I don't weigh too much so what is the deal. I got to thinking that maybe it was more the loose skin I have in my tummy that just feels odd. I did hold a large percentage of my weight in my stomach. So when I am standing or lying flat I look good when I sit or even slouch I can feel the rolls of skin and the fat that is taking longer to leave.

So I decided to use my Itworks wrap if nothing else it leaves my skin silky smooth but who knows maybe it will work a lot better now that I have lost a lot of the fat on my own. I am not going to get my hopes up that it is a miracle cure because they didn't do much good fro me 20 pounds ago other than make my skin feel nice. They softened and tightened my skin but they did not make me loose much in the way of inches like they claim.

I am not going to let myself fall into the trap of always feeling fat so I have to give myself some positive self talk. I work hard each day to make sure that I am not fat I eat healthy most days and I work out enough that one bad day won't kill me. I get an average of 10-14 hours a week of quality exercise in and all of my friends and family are giving me huge compliments and asking me what I am doing. So I am not going to go there I will get that flat tummy in time. As far as I am concerned as long as I stick to this training schedule and eat right it will come I just need to be patient and that is what the professionals are saying as well.

From what I have read people that carry almost all of their excess weight in their midsection are likely to have a hard time loosing it there. I have always struggled with this. I have lost over 40 pounds now and I swear the first 20 all came from my legs and arms...okay maybe the first 15.

I will tell you one thing that I can not stress enough building muscle is the key. Yes you need cardio but I truly believe that a highly toned body burns fat easily. It took me about a year to get the first 20 pounds off and just over 4 months to get the last twenty.I even look better than I did the last time I was thin. My legs and arms are truly strong.

Well enough of my open diary today if you are struggling with your weight I hope I can give you some encouragement. Let me know and I will try to help any way I can.