Well today I go see a counselor, I hope she can help me sort out some of my issues. I have bigger issues feeling very depressed but I really don't want to talk about that. I am thinking she can help me with my eating when I am depressed issue too. I have done well after crying for a week I have only over eaten once when I went out to eat last night with the ladies from my small group. Stuffing my mouth with food was easy because there was chips and salsa on the table, it kept me from crying and it felt good to eat.
I know I will never be confident and sexy with what amounts to a food addiction, especially when I look to food for comfort. I have found a wonderful woman on a message board who I am working with as a partner to talk about our food issues. It has helped a lot in my keeping away from too much food. I know it won't help my depression to eat but for that moment it does. In the long run I feel worse.
I have a giant headache from crying and that makes it hard for me to work out, I have also been sleeping too much. I start school in a week so I really need to get this under control somehow and I refuse to take medicine. That just messes with my body and makes me feel numb. I did read a book one of the really bad days. I couldn't take the crying or food cravings anymore so I just sat down with a book found an alternate reality to immerse myself into. I started the Anna Strong Chronicles and will have a review soon at http://darknovels.blogspot.com
Never give up.
ReplyDeleteI know you've probably heard that a hundred times before, but it's what helped me. Years ago I was also seeing a counselor, and she did nothing for me. But thanks to a few friends I met who saved my life I struggled on.
I've been going through tough times lately, so may slide back to where I was. But my advice still stands. All you need to carry you through is one thing. One idea, hope, person or goal that pulls you through. I'll follow my advice if you do too!
I wish I had the answer, to sum it up. I hope you are getting the response this from your husband “don’t worry babe, it does not matter what you look like. You will always be the one for me. And if you do gain a little weight so what, if you need a shoulder to cry on, you can count on me. Life would not be worth living without someone as wonderful as you in it…..”
ReplyDeleteI sure hope that is what it is like, if so then listen to him, life is more than looking good and having lots of money. It’s about love, friendship and having a sense of belonging to a family.
These thing matter, not what society forces us to think is important…
I can’t relate to feeling depression or not feeling worthy or that I am a failure. That is not who I am…
I’ll give you the advice I give my kids every time they will listen to me, every day of their lives.
YOU ARE THE ONLY PERSON IN THIS WORLD WHO WILL DETERMIN WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU CAN DO, NEVER LISTEN TO ANYONE WHO TELLS YOU, YOUR NOT ABLE TO DO THIS, YOUR NOT GOOD ENOUGH, YOUR NOT COOL ENOUGH, YOUR NOT CUTE/HANDSOME ENOUGH, YOUR NOT SMART ENOUGH.
Because it does not matter what they think, you are who you make yourself to be. Know you are good enough know you are worth it… and never give up and never surrender yourself dignity…
If you let anyone dictate who you are, or how you feel about yourself then your loosing the fight, stop it now. Your attitude and action will be learned by your kid and you weakness will be transferred to them… stand up and enjoy life feel the good things in life… let go of the bad.. Know you’re worth it!!
That’s is all I can say, its your mind, your action, it a conscious thought to feel sad or to feel worthless or to feel ugly…. Enough is enough, be proud of who you are, there is only one of you and you can never be duplicated, you are unique, you are special, you are what you make yourself.
Its up to you and no one else, look inside tell yourself how you are going to feel, tell yourself how your going to act, never let stress weigh you down.
LIFE IS TO SHORT TO LIFE IN A BAD STATE OF MIND, BNRING DOWN THOSE AROUND YOU….
That’s all I can say and hop a light goes off in your mind, letting you know you are who you decide to be…
No excuses… no excuses….no excuses ……….GET IT!!!!!
that was kind of a response to all 3 post... sorry got carried away... hope it helps
ReplyDeletejust know you can change... its a choice