Thursday, September 30, 2010

I Will Be Working On My Attitude Today

I am exhausted and not just because I can't sleep. I have been working at my step-dad's automotive shop part time for about the last 6 months. I quit there full time thinking I would go back to school and get another degree. Then went back when my replacement was going to deliver her baby.

I left work in tears many days before I quit the first time. I also was put on anxiety medication to control the almost constant migraine headache I had while working there. I am not writing this to trash my step-dad he can do that for himself. It is just impossible to work for him.
He is either mean or like a toddler slamming doors and stomping around. He does thinks I take advantage of him. I don't know about most people but my real dad helped me out when I needed it. I am not talking about money. I am talking about coming with me to see a house to check and see if I didn't see something major wrong with it, or having my mom take me to the doctor when my hubby can't and I need a ride home. I do the same for them when I can. I thought that is what family was for. I don't take money from them except from my job or something they pay me to do that they don't have the time to do.

Just so you don't think I am a spoiled whiny brat in 4 years he has fired at least 6 mechanics and is now working in the shop by himself. I think for me the worst part is no matter what I do he thinks I am trying to take advantage of him. I am tempted to find a new mechanic just so I don't have to ask him for help ever again. I pay him to fix my car but it is discounted but my car also sits in the shop most of the time until there are no other customers and has been known to be a month.

So I started feeling the headaches and the stress come back. I thought it was best to end it before I started getting yelled at for things I didn't even do. Once he is mad at you there is no going back, even if it is for something you were NEVER told to do. It just gets worse and worse.

I had already decided to try to get a job in my field. I do have a degree in Social Work and I could make a lot more money doing that part time. I have been working hard to get my continuing education in and I finished all thirty hours in less than a week of constant reading and studying. Then I renewed my license and membership to the NASW. I have my second interview this morning at nine. I was going to stay until I had another job in place but I was afraid my health was going to be affected.

I only have 4 more work days and I will be done for good. I knew when I started to get scared to talk to him that things were going downhill and if we are to be able to get along outside as a family I needed to quit. I would rather work at McDonald than ever work for him again. I don't think I will have to do that with my degree I should be able to get something and I might even enjoy it.

So my new plan is to get a Social Work job and work on writing. I have a few leads that seem promising on the writing. I will have tons more time soon and things are really looking up.


  1. Doesn't sound like for, or a place i would work at... nothing could be worth that.

    do what you love, not what you love to hate... life doesn't get any easier doing that.

    i hope you find something else. good luck

  2. Doesn't sound like (for) *I meant fun*