Stuff

I know the title of this post is not creative. I tried creative and I just kept coming back to STUFF. I just have so much going on and it is a mix of all aspects of my life. My husband and I go to a counselor every other week to learn how to work on our communication issues. It has been an eye-opener for me at the very least. We have let so many things go over the years it is hard to reconnect at times. Things there are getting better as we learn how to better understand each other.

I am also learning that I so don't ever want a bigger house there is already too much to clean. I am trying to be a better wife and do more around the house, especially while I am only in school part time. I have also been walking the dog more. The goal would be an hour at least 4 days a week but that is going to take some time. I may just have to do every other day because I was dying yesterday after two days of long walks on the pavement. I had trouble walking to class yesterday. If I had to guess it would be that the pavement is hard on my hip that was broken. I don't get this way from the treadmill or from the Wii step with weights on.

I have been rethinking my school status as I talked with a professor who thinks I should already be able to get into the masters program. I am not sure I am going to get a second Bachelors that will cost me more money. I am however going to take all English courses until I can get into the Masters program. I am going to spend more time working on a creative writing portfolio. He is trying to get a creative writing program up and running. I hope he is successful then I might be able to shift my focus from literature to writing.

I have so much work to do and I have been organizing some of my days better. At first I was trying to organize every hour and that backfired. Life throws you all kinds of curve balls when you get this crazy. So now I am giving myself at least an hour in the morning to drink coffee and do whatever I want. Then I try to make a list of things to do and put a star next to things I need to have done that day. The other items would be nice to get done today but can be moved to another day if necessary. That has been working a lot better for me now I am going to have to schedule time for creative writing beyond my class work too. I think I keep it a loose time schedule like a few hours a week when I can fit it in. So if it is just two hours on the weekend I am not all bummed out because I failed to work on it for an hour each day.

It is strange how setting goals affects me. If I don't meet my own goals no matter how silly they are I am disappointed in myself. I have to learn to set reasonable goals and be flexible. Then when the time comes for more structured goals I can handle them instead of just giving up.