How much trouble would I get in if I shot my neighbors with a ........

Oh I don't know something non-lethal but annoyingly painful. I don't even own a gun but the thought of buying something with rubber bullets occurs to me because it is super loud in this area as soon as the snow melts. People party all night everyday of the week. Many nights I wake up to people fighting outside. Most of the time just a bunch of screaming but it is still disrupting my sleep.

Last night I woke up to police lights and the night before there was a guy for well over a half an hour pounding on a door across the street. Why? If anyone was home they didn't want to answer the door. I had a million things  I wanted to shout out the window. I didn't want to open it though and make my bedroom cold. Then I would never get back to sleep. So what did I do I just tried to sleep until it stopped.

Just as I go on a day shift I where I can get proper sleep I am getting to the season where the neighbors keep me awake. You see this is why I want to move out in the country and far away from people.

Food is my Enemy

Right now I think I could eat my own weight in junk food. I am not really that hungry I just want it. The picture I posted is of candy but my cravings are more varied than that.

What I really want is a whole pizza with bacon and pineapple on it and a burger with onion rings. I am really glad that I have been eating smaller meals because if my cravings get the best of me at least I fill up faster.

Lucky for me I don't have any of these items in my house and I don't plan to go anywhere today. My hubby might want to go out for dinner but I doubt that. I really don't know why I have such a love/hate relationship with food. I really love the way junk food tastes but I hate what it makes me look and fell like. I had a not so great food day yesterday but the worst thing I had was a cup of hot chocolate. I have done very well today but I can't get my mind off of food.

I really do wish I was one of those women who could eat what she wanted to and keep her figure. I am not and it seems that everything I eat turns to fat. I can eat a 1000 calorie diet for weeks and barely loose weight.   That is why I am not counting calories or getting on the scale everyday. I feel like one burger ends up attached to my ass and a piece of pizza right to my gut. There is no winning for me unless I eat a diet of chicken and vegetables. Can I just say YUCK. I can stand it for quite some times and I can get creative in the spring and summer with fresh veggies that really are good but in the winter I am mostly stuck with frozen stuff. I have fruit too but again the winter selection of fresh fruit is not awesome.

Oh well I am stuck with this body and the only way to change it is to eat light and work out. I REALLY can't wait until spring when I can spend more time outdoors as exercise and can find better fresh fruit and veggies.

Evil is Everywhere

Well I want to complain a little today. I am on a diet in a loose sense of the word but really I am. Why is it that I never noticed all the food billboards around town until now?

I can not have that good looking pizza or the ice cream or donuts. I also noticed as I watch episodes of television shows from Netflix that hot super skinny girls eat whatever they want. They eat fries, and nacho's and bread and pasta and well whatever desert they want.

Really I don't even want to be that skinny but it seems like if I eat one fast food burger and fries I put on 5 pounds. It really is not fair and it is also not realistic. I am sure if they are even eating the foods in these shows that all they eat is what you see them eat. A bite or two of the food and that is that. I know some people can eat like that and not suffer from a huge belly and flab on the extremities. I think the majority of human beings do suffer the consequences from a diet like depicted in television shows.

I am just a tad bit sensitive right now. I am trying really hard not to eat too much to not eat a lot of junk food. I have been somewhat successful but not as much as I would like. I have a weakness for sweets and I have trouble satisfying those cravings with fruit. I also could eat pizza everyday and never get sick of it so that is a huge issue for me.

Is it to crazy to say that the media in all its forms is evil and wants me to fail. Okay I know that is crazy but I do wish they would stop acting like a diet of fried foods, pizza and buckets of ice cream are staples of the diet of a 95 pound actress. I mean how many times have you seen a movie with a weepy woman eating a whole 1/2 gallon of ice cream and she still looks like a model???

Is Sexy A Bad Word Or Something

Okay I have not had a good old fashioned rant in at least a few weeks. I have been turned down several times for Entrecard ads because they said my blog was not appropriate. Now I am sure some of them just don't except ads that are not related to their topic but I have had other people and places act like the title of my blog implies it is about sex.

I had some people I knew for years say that the blog was not appropriate and they didn't even look at it they said they knew by the title.

No offense but I am a married woman and I really don't think there is anything wrong with any woman wanting to look sexy for their HUSBAND. Sorry couldn't help it I just had to use all caps. Besides that is not what this blog is about, it is about being the the kind of woman Proverbs 31 talks about. I don't advertise it that way because I don't want my blog to become religious. I am a Christian but I don't believe my blog needs to preach to people. This blog is about my journey what ever it may be to being a great wife as well as a great woman. This blog is just about me and my life most of the time and it really has nothing to do with sex.

I realized if I used that word in my title that I could get some creepy people looking for a naked pictures or a few women who thought I was going to tell them how to weigh ninety pounds and stay that way. I just didn't think that the community at large and especially the religious community would think that anything with the word sexy in it was by definition bad. I get that some people have no idea who I am like most entrecarders but people that I know. I chose that title because it seemed catchy and I thought some people especially dieters might search for it. It started as just Sexy For Life and I felt I had to ad the part about fitness and finances.

Oh well I guess you can't win them all.

My Crappy Friday

Warning men that read this blog skip to the second paragraph....trust me you don't want to read the first one.

Well I had plans to get on the treadmill yesterday but it is that time of the month and it was heavy and I had the cramps from hell. This made me want to sit on my couch and do nothing but I decided to try and drop a lot of cards. So I was double because this should not have been a problem. I was on a birth control that stopped my cycle for about 11 years. I was taken off of it after a hip fracture last year at 31. I had an operation to prevent pregnancy and was also supposed to have an ablation (not sure how to spell that) which was supposed to stop heavy bleeding. My doctor didn't think I needed it so she just didn't do it.  So now if I want this done I will have to satisfy my 2000 dollars in up front medical expenses again. There was a point in getting these things done at the same time but she wanted to wait and see if I had bad periods again.

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So I am done with that rant I am sorry to any bloggers who I may have commented on when I was super moody please accept my apology and feel free to delete my comments. There was something else I noticed yesterday when I looked at blogs that I commented on. Some people don't approve or delete comments they don't like. I have made some polite comments on blogs where I don't share the bloggers opinion and I have been deleted. I suppose that is the persons prerogative but I never thought of doing that. Well unless someone was downright nasty. I actually like to hear when a person doesn't like a book I like or disagrees with my weight loss plan. I don't have to change my mind but my readers don't have to think like me either. Usually when I make a comment other than yesterday that disagree with I try to do so with respect to the writer. I guess you can't win everything it just feels like I waste my time sometimes. I have been trying to comment on posts that stick out to me and on blogs I really enjoy reading.

I tried to get into my WoW game again and I am still frustrated I just keep getting killed and I have no motivation to get past that because I it takes so long to walk anywhere after you die. I wish I could just teleport then I would play more but I am rather sick of having to travel forever to get to anything. So that didn't make my mood any better.

So after a day of feeling like crap I am going to get on the treadmill again today I have too because I am going to eat pizza tonight. We are celebrating Valentines day today and I saved all of my flex points for today so I can eat as much pizza as I want and maybe a little dessert if I want. I was thinking I might make something sweet for my hubby and have a little myself but who knows it is only ten thirty right now and he doesn't get up until about three or four.

Can I Just Rant for a Moment?

My brain was not working well yesterday because of a migraine. So I go to download the latest Dave Ramsey podcast and look was looking at reviews. I am a Christian so his religious views don't bother me but I really understood the people who didn't like his religious views. Most of the people who didn't like him had valid reasons. They may have been based on opinion but everyone has the right to have an opinion.

Then there is this person who thinks Dave has political views on taxes that are contrary to Christian beliefs! Okay I am a Christian and the only thing I have ever heard or seen in the Bible about taxes is that you should pay them.

This is why people don't like Christians they think that they know everything and claim that "this is the Christian way" but where do you find this in the Bible. For that matter Mr. Ramsey does not spend a whole lot of time talking about taxes either, nor does not spend a lot of time on politics on the radio show. This is not his focus and even the non-religious people could see this.

It makes me mad that so many Christians claim that there way is the only way on issues that are either not clear or not even mentioned in the Bible they claim to follow. Over the years they have made things up.

Here is one of my favorites, I am sinning if I tempt a man because I don't always wear a bra! One of these days I am going to do some research and see when the bra was invented and if women who lived in pre-bra ages were considered sinners for not wearing something not invented yet. Now I am not talking about going bra-less in a thin white T-shirt, but if I want to wear a sweatshirt and sweatpants to the grocery store with out undergarments I really don't think God cares.

I hate when people make personal preference into some sort of Christian law. I know I can't be the only one with stories like this I am sure I could think of dozens. It just grates on my nerves and is probably why over the years I have developed a bit of a fear of sharing my faith. People get very defensive when you say you are a Christian and I don't blame them. I don't think even Jesus set out to tell people a big set of rules they had to follow. He loved people and His love earned him followers. I just can't see how or why so many Christians just ignore that part. Even people who don't believe in Christianity(or maybe especially because they don't) can see that Jesus did not behave like many modern day Christians.

Well I am done for now I have tons of school work to do so I need to stop with the blog posts. Today I just want to write and write for some reason. Visit my Dark Novels blog for the latest news on my life.