Got a Job

Well I think pretty sure I did. It is part time plus a floating position not bad pay and part of it is at home. I start training Monday. I don't want to say what it is until I am absolutely sure I have it. I know I am a little paranoid but I don't want to jinx it.

I am pretty relieved that I at should at least have enough income coming in to replace my old job and most of it will be working at home. So no gas money and no need to buy new clothes. No forgetting my lunch and having to eat our or not eat. It also leaves me open to take the on call position too if they don't need me on Wednesdays. That is my only set day to work. The on call position would only be 2-3 days and every other weekend. I would love both jobs so working a lot of hours would be no big deal.

I had an interview today and I just felt sick about it. I didn't want to go to another factory job. I went to college so I wouldn't have to work in a factory again but a job is a job. So I leave myself almost an hour to get travel about 20 minutes and I end up getting lost and stuck by a train and the email said if you are late don't bother showing up. Before I left for this job I wrote emails to the people I interviewed with and could find contact information. I asked them if they could give me tips on how to interview better. The great news is that they were all positive comments and one was just worried that I needed a full time job and would quit after they invested in my training.

Even if I only take this job it should average what I made before and that will make me a heck of a lot less nervous.

Thanks for all the support!

Feeling Anxious

I am feeling very anxious that I don't have a job yet. We finally found a housing option that we would love but I would need to have a job first. We found a place that we can build a house for a good price on our own lot. We really like the idea and we loved the model homes.

I have put more resumes out there than I can count. I have had a few interviews and I am really hoping and praying that I will have a job by December. I had an interview on Thursday for a job I really want. I have a lunch meeting with my mentor and first boss as a social worker. I also believe I have an interview on Tuesday for a factory job if they don't cancel.

I wish that not having a job was the only thing making me feel uneasy but I don't think that is it. I really don't want to take just any job such as a factory job. The job market here is not great so I can't just sit back and wait for my perfect job. I can't stop looking just because I interviewed for one that seems perfect. We need to keep saving money and that means I need to work. I think that I get really afraid that the fist job I am going to get is not going to be the one I want at all.

I am also trying to get my eating back on track and add some other work out to my evening walks with the dog and hubby. My elliptical is still making a clunking noise and we need to call sometime when they are open and my hubby is up because I can't do what they are asking me to do.

I love food that took time to prepare but I usually don't have time and I hate the mess. We ate well tonight: Miso veggies, noodle soup, Sesame Balsamic Chicken and green tea. I have good meals planned for tomorrow as well. Left over noodle soup and Lime chicken.

Job Scams

As I sit here today after a full 6 hours of searching for a job I am once again outraged by the evil people out there taking advantage of people when they are down on their luck. What exactly do they thing they are going to get from someone who doesn't have a job. It looks like they try to get all of your info and steal your identity or maybe it is you last $200 dollars. Whatever it is they are everywhere.

The worst part is they look like any other job ad most of the time. The scamming business must be booming because they even buy ads on Monster.com and Careerbuilder. The best way to tell if it is a scam is if it seems too good to be true. They are wising up to that and changing their format to include a more reasonable rate of pay.

The thing I really hate is there have been several companies that have made me fill out these long and annoying applications and then they want me to pay for their services. I do have some time on my hands now but I don't want to pay to find a job. If I find a job where I have to pay for uniforms of something that is fine but I am not shelling out any cash to get a job.

Don't these people have a heart, how can they do this crap to people and live with themselves?

If you are looking for employment in this slow economy and you are afraid an offer might be a scam your best bet is to run in the opposite direction. If you want to check it out limit the amount of personal information you give them and never give them money.

If you think you would be good at sales there are many companies that offer you that opportunity and they are legitimate. Just be careful as you enter the job searching world.

Filed For Unemployment

Well I never did end up quitting my job they asked me to come back and then closed the doors after about a month. I helped them pack and move and now I am done. I have had a few interviews and some side work on my days off. This is the first week I have had to catch up on all my errands and some house work. I am sending out resumes for anything that looks decent. I want something part time in my field or something that keeps me really busy, preferably active.

I could use some ideas on where to apply for jobs that would keep me physically active (Keep in mind I am a five foot woman so no moving furniture or lifting 100 lbs over my head) and that uses my Social Work degree. I really wish I could find a job that was both of those but I don't see it happening.

Well if anyone still reads this blog after my long absence I would like to say I am going to attempt to update the blog several times a week. I am going to talk about my progress in the job search or creating my own business if I must. I am have been working out a lot more and eating a lot less but I am only making headway on the pounds I gained back since last time I talked about my weight. I am going to talk more about healthy lifestyle and the struggles I am having maintaining one.

I am not sure what else I will be writing about in the near future but I have lots to say so I am sure I can think of something.

Halloween is Almost Upon Us

Sadly I am a little depressed this year. I still can't fit into any of my costumes. I don't want to buy a new one since I have a bunch of them and it is just for one night of handing out candy. I am sure the kids don't care if I am in a costume or a bath robe as long as they get candy.

I was hoping to be down a few more sizes but it really is my fault that I am not. I have trouble saying no to sweets and pizza. I loose my motivation to work out to easily and I expect instant results.

I have kept away from the scale lately but I have been walking a good three miles or more almost everyday with the hubby and the dog. I have been trying to do some strength training too. I am so wimpy that I have to do it every other day and I can't do much yet. How one can walk miles a day but be sore for at least four days from 40 girl push ups is beyond me.

So my plans for Halloween are to just hand out candy in something warm and comfy. I can watch all the kids in there cute and creepy costumes. I can hope for next year to fit into one. Maybe if that happens I will throw a costume party!

Well off to work I go.

Writing Like a Mad Woman Today

Well I am back and motivated to write again. I have had some big snags in the road but they are nothing I can't overcome. I knew rejection would hurt when applying for writing jobs but I didn't realize I would loose my motivation.

I also didn't realize how hyper critical I would be of the work I write for others. I don't want others to look bad and I spend way too much time revising. The worst part is my first instincts are often better than my revisions. What starts as polishing up my work ends up with a piece that lacks in personality. Oh well I will learn how to balance the editing process.

I am really feeling like me today and it is nice. It may have taken all morning to get out of this funk and realize that I have been trying too hard to please others. Not that it is never important to please others but there is a point where you need to stand up for yourself.

I have started a diary to shape a character that I have had in my head for years on my Dark Novels blog.
I actually think this Lucy character will have to be split up into multiple characters because I have changed her so much over the years. I have only dared to write about her a few times but I dream about her as well as make up stories in my head about her when I am bored. I have always felt like an idiot about this and I have only shared it a few times and then put it back in the crazy idea box to hide from the world.

Even if I never become some great novelist I can use this to spark my creativity. When I make up stories and characters it forces me to think outside the box. It forces me out of my real life and the breaks the chains that bind me to boredom and practicality.

I Will Be Working On My Attitude Today

I am exhausted and not just because I can't sleep. I have been working at my step-dad's automotive shop part time for about the last 6 months. I quit there full time thinking I would go back to school and get another degree. Then went back when my replacement was going to deliver her baby.

I left work in tears many days before I quit the first time. I also was put on anxiety medication to control the almost constant migraine headache I had while working there. I am not writing this to trash my step-dad he can do that for himself. It is just impossible to work for him.
He is either mean or like a toddler slamming doors and stomping around. He does thinks I take advantage of him. I don't know about most people but my real dad helped me out when I needed it. I am not talking about money. I am talking about coming with me to see a house to check and see if I didn't see something major wrong with it, or having my mom take me to the doctor when my hubby can't and I need a ride home. I do the same for them when I can. I thought that is what family was for. I don't take money from them except from my job or something they pay me to do that they don't have the time to do.

Just so you don't think I am a spoiled whiny brat in 4 years he has fired at least 6 mechanics and is now working in the shop by himself. I think for me the worst part is no matter what I do he thinks I am trying to take advantage of him. I am tempted to find a new mechanic just so I don't have to ask him for help ever again. I pay him to fix my car but it is discounted but my car also sits in the shop most of the time until there are no other customers and has been known to be a month.

So I started feeling the headaches and the stress come back. I thought it was best to end it before I started getting yelled at for things I didn't even do. Once he is mad at you there is no going back, even if it is for something you were NEVER told to do. It just gets worse and worse.

I had already decided to try to get a job in my field. I do have a degree in Social Work and I could make a lot more money doing that part time. I have been working hard to get my continuing education in and I finished all thirty hours in less than a week of constant reading and studying. Then I renewed my license and membership to the NASW. I have my second interview this morning at nine. I was going to stay until I had another job in place but I was afraid my health was going to be affected.

I only have 4 more work days and I will be done for good. I knew when I started to get scared to talk to him that things were going downhill and if we are to be able to get along outside as a family I needed to quit. I would rather work at McDonald than ever work for him again. I don't think I will have to do that with my degree I should be able to get something and I might even enjoy it.

So my new plan is to get a Social Work job and work on writing. I have a few leads that seem promising on the writing. I will have tons more time soon and things are really looking up.